When did I become so ....blah?

"Both my wife and daughter think I'm this gigantic loser. And in a way, they're right. I have lost something. I'm not exactly sure what, but I know I didn't always feel this...sedated. But you know what? It's never too late to get it back." - Lester in American Beauty.


I can relate a lot to the dad in American Beauty. I mean, when did I become so...sedated? How did 10 years just pass right by me without even a chance to sit down and reflect? I'm so soft now: in my body, my opinions, and my zest for life. I feel like I've lost something, a spark, an attitude. I used to be this ultra-liberal, anything goes kind of guy, now my thinking is more conservative and my attitude has turned into 'ahh, who gives a crap' instead of challenging something. My panic disorder hit me really hard, it's a shame. He's right though, it's never too late to get it back.